A special afternoon

Yes, indeed!! : D It was a special afternoon. Thank God for that. The week before when I was invited to this Masquerade Party, I actually dismissed the thought of going as I would be having my youth meeting at Calvary. However, the people in this church are too nice and warm to reject their invitation. And on Monday, it turned out smoothly that my shopping plan could be carried out with the help of my good friend Vince and so I made it to this very special afternoon event. Thank you Vince for helping me from choosing of gown to the selection of the pretty mask. ;)

And so, the greatest surprise was my hair turned out to be sooo curly (: I really love the curly hair. As I was only using hairpins, I did not expect the outcome to be such wonderful. And thanks to my aunt for he marvelous make-up. In the party, it was truly a new and exciting experience. I had the first experience of social dancing. I had the first experience of having my hair curled :) haha. And I was nominated as the Masquerade Queen. Most importantly, I have gotten to know interesting people there.

Thank God that you have filled this summer break of mine with so many surprises. But most importantly, you have uplifted this spirit so much that I cant't describe. The way I perceive things and handle them has been transformed 180 degree. Yes, God this is my promise. I'll continue to be happy, cheerful, hopeful, beautiful, and free (:

Smile :D

Showing Love

YEA!! It was just another Sunday afternoon but three of us have definitely made approximately 100 over people in the mall felt lifted up in one way or another. Perhaps you will say that it was just too simple to be taken as an impressive or great move yet simplicity is exactly what makes this manifestation of love great and powerful. There was no video recording or photos taken but the scene of love manifestation through sincere hugs will definitely be etched in those 100 people's mind and of course in ours. 

This was my first time doing such a thing. Previously when I was in primary school, I have first experienced approaching strangers to sell my school's carnival coupon and have been rejected. Ever since, I have never stood up to approach strangers for anything. This time I was moved to carry out this idea (considered rare and strange in Malaysia) and was at first taken aback as well. I started off going to people I felt comfortable with and with the least chance of rejection. Then I have moved on to people who did not show friendly faces. Deep in my heart there is a voice telling me that I need to reach out to those who have long lost in love. Yes there was rejection and there was a small voice telling me, "See, I told ya. It wont work. It's just awkward and meaningless doing this." But I quickly swept off this thought and began to realize rejection is what we need to accept and in return be open-minded because I believe as we open up ourselves, people around us will do the same. 

And, you know what? The result was marvelous beyond imagination. It was just a simple act of showing love and those who started off rejecting were mellowed down with us opening up our arms wide. Workers felt appreciated and talked about it among colleagues, families were smiling from their hearts, some who did not understand us was surprised with the gift of love but understood the language of love all the same: a simple hug, a sign of appreciation, a manifestation of love and care for the society. 

Even though there were a few who rejected to receive the hug but I do strongly believe that somehow or rather, as we have started off showing love to those 100 people, this love is vigorous and will definitely spread to another 100 and hundreds more. 

This is what the Lord does: showing His love for us so we can know how to love others as how He has loved us. Thank you Lord once again for the chance of letting this heart knows of the love you have shown us. Help us O Lord to continue to love as how You have loved us. Amen.

Simple (:

Simple. Yes, it was simply a nice and casual lunch. First of all, thanks for your lunch and the encouraging words that you have given me over lunch. (: I appreciate your effort in picking me up from my place with the aid of GPS although you are not familiar with this area. Most importantly, I'm grateful to have gotten to learn much from you with just a casual lunch. I feel I have more to learn from you, in my spiritual growth and direction of life. God is speaking to me through you and I shall follow what He says (:

Grateful

In a few couples of days later, 2012's first half is going to end. Time rockets I shall say. Lamentably, only in these two months do I realize the secret pearl that has been implanted within my heart. Before this, that pearl, which of immeasurable value, was perceived as negligible. How foolish was I before this. Exactly, temporal and deceitful things have blinded me from the truth. Foolish was I to satisfy with only temporal joy when I could have found rest in Him and experience true and eternal joy. Nonetheless, now is the time of thanksgiving for the great love of His that has brought forth all the good things laid before my eyes. Thank God for your grace and truth.

All this while, I have been living in basic security and comfort. However, this past half-year was quite an expected one or one that I have never anticipated before. As I recollect those previous years that I have swayed away from the house of God, life had never been too easy to find apprehension to the huge challenges and obstacles that I have encountered. However, as I look back to this past year ( starting from last year's July ) that I have started to know God, this whole year was a different or rather not one that I could have expected. He made the plans for me, impeccable plans. Nevertheless, I have chosen the other way, I have misused the freewill God had given me since birth. However, God is never too weary to welcome His lost children back to His house. Amen. I have been brought back again, just like how a lost son goes back to his father.

Grateful is the right word at the right time of my life now.

"Rest in God and all things shall fall in place. Amen"

It was a beautiful Saturday

YES INDEED. It was truly a special and beautiful Saturday. I went for work as usual and after work, it was LG time :] It was my second time in LG and I'm starting to love this group. Ironically, this second LG meeting gave me more surprises than the the first one. The surprises come from someone. I'll just name this someone E. E exudes a certain level of confidence that serve as an attractive force to those around E. I have not known E from this LG actually as E had initiated conversation with me since Christmas production. To me, E is a friendly person. But today, I had seen the serious and stern side of E. I'm sure E is a good friend to know as I have too much to learn from E, a good advocate I would say.

The Saturday of course did not end just there. I went for a night service at New Life Church. It was Chinese based but I find them very welcoming and warm. It was a wonderful service too and I have met new people too. This particular person gave me the nice and warm eye contact and smile that I will not forget. The handshake was a good one too. And to conclude, I find that people who delight in God are so beautiful and warm. The smile is nothing being forged or has any hidden meaning, just the pure joy coming from a heart that is filled with the Word.

That Saturday was how beautiful. I will remember, now and always. (:

Heartfelt lyrics

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?

Yeah, I, I know it's hard to remember,
The people we used to be...
It's even harder to picture,
That you're not here next to me.

You say it's too late to make it,
But is it too late to try?
And in our time that you wasted
All of our bridges burned down

I've wasted my nights,
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed,
Still stuck in that time,
When we called it love,
But even the sun sets in paradise

The song sings it all.

Hold your tongue

What a good message from Pastor Raymond Yong today. By convention, I would have probably missed this message as I have opted for morning services due to the extraordinarily hot weather nowadays. However, by God's plan I had been given the special opportunity of being part of this very special message. It really spoke to my heart at the right time. It was really in a way "went with the flow" as I did not have plans in mind to attend two services on Sunday. Before this special service, I had a great time with Lish and Lind having lunch and tea.

Ok, back to the message. Holding your tongue. By first thought, you would think that, "Well, asking me not to talk or even utter any word." but the message is quite the opposite. Speech by the tongue is much encouraged for good and constructive purposes actually. It is hard to accomplish in daily life as for mature couple or old family, a simple phrase of " I love you" or "Dear, I really thank you for your care all these years. " will come in awkward for most of the people in this era as people tend to be less and less interactive. Moreover, it is even harder to accomplish when we are constantly tempted by the sin of anger and we often utter ungraceful words in our anger outbursts. These words, most of the time or rather I would say all the time, are destructive and hurtful curses. And Pastor said something to my heart, he pointed out that we would easily utter such words in anger or daily lives is due to the presence of unconscious evil thoughts we have for the world. And the heart governs what comes out of the tongue, making tongue the showcase of our true inner heart.

At this point, I did a thorough self-reflect. And I realized the impulse within me as I have gotten angry easily and  spilled out ungraceful words that have been hurtful to many. I have sinned in my anger. Though I have no full control over my emotions, but I'm glad that I know God's word and that I can transform myself by knowing God's hands are upon my life. This is not an overnight transformation but I pledge to show to God that I will do it, no matter what it takes, to take on a new life with Jesus Christ's character. Love your neighbour, love your enemy, be slow in anger and abounding in love.

A simple day out :]

Yesterday, it was a spontaneous day out with my close girl friend Wen Dee. The chance of catching up in life with the closed ones is very precious. During lunch time at Dubu Dubu Restaurant, we had a great time talking about the various happy and crazy moments of 4S4 and 5S4. Moments when we fought over little things of course has become a laughing matter now. Those high school moments are too special and significant to be forgotten.

Now that I have 3 more years left before I take on a life changing journey in my career. Wen and I have realized that by then we would have much lesser time to meet up, which is quite true. However, I still look forward to my career life. By that time, I would be nearer to my dreams and things that I want to achieve in life. The life that is entirely based upon my wish and style. Of course, things wont go as easy as a to z but I'm ready to face the challenge.

Tomorrow will be a nice day :] I'm going to meet up with a bunch of new friends from LG. It is my first time being in a LG and hopefully it'll be a great kick start of my involvement in church though it's not really one since I have participated in Christmas choir last year. Haha.

P.S. All the best to myself =]

Foundation year has come to an end

Time flies. Yea, it's a common yet undeniable truth. And yes this is another tiny turning point compared to that from high school because in coming September I'm going to start my degree course officially. As for now, I have graduated from foundation and it was truly a special and fruitful year. Special in the sense that I have encountered novel environment and people while the fruitful part of course is that I have went a level up in my education.

This foundation year had been a ride of ups and downs both physically and mentally. Starting April last year, that was a great turning point where I left my home sweet home to stay in a new and challenging environment. I was really enthusiastic in meeting new people, facing new challenges. I was really filled with positive energies. On the first day itself, I met him, the 2nd person in Foundation in Science. He seems like a shy person to me. Not much feeling aroused though : P But yea he was friendly.

I have gotten into a group of girl friends and so most of the time of my first semester were spent with them. And  most of the time in campus (after lesson) I would spend alone or with my roommate. I did revision daily too. Haha. And then, there came another guy who tried to interact and get to know me. But honestly speaking, at that time, my whole mind was filled with only how to strive for better in my studies so I did not feel much though he continued to shower his care and concern for me. And then, perhaps I had mistaken people's expectation with mine and therefore I started things foolishly. (Thank God you have found your happiness now, if not I will feel guilty).

And then, there came 2nd semester where my truly close and special friend appeared. He was there when I faced difficult times. In fact, he was just there in good and bad times. And of course, we were very happy catching up in each other's lives and we enjoyed the companionship. The bond grew stronger and stronger. However, we made mistakes in dealing with the trials that our close relationship had encountered. One had set up expectations before learning to know what's the best for the other party and another had always tried to hide all discomfort so that the other party would not feel hurt or sad. It was really a special bond in a way that we both knew each other quite well actually. But in the end, as what flawed humans always do, negative thoughts came into the picture and blinded our eyes to the wonderful things set before us. And as negative thoughts grow more they completely overturn the wonderful things, and the bond is broken.

I do still wish to weave back the close bond, yet in a new way of course. New way constitutes refreshed mind and thoughts. How I wish things did not end this way. Yet, I would not put the blame to anyone as I know everything that happens to me or around me, I am held accountable for. All I can do is to use pure loving heart to accept everything that has happened. Because only when I know how to really love (friend/ partner), the bond will be stronger and more firm.

P.S. I am truly grateful to have you being with me all the times. Honey did his best for Pooh. Honey let Pooh realize too how Pooh has deviated from the original happy and simple Pooh. Luckily Pooh is going back to the origin now. :]

事实在后头

回顾以往的时光，
看回种种的回忆，
发现原来自己之前都太傻了。

越看得久，真相越凸现。


P.S. 你真正爱的是她。你能无条件地为她付出，但不是我。

你为她做的录音带就证明了你那时爱一个人的真心。而我的似乎是为了迎合众人看法而为我庆祝的。

舒服

今天去了阿姨那儿，
做 facial treatment，
太舒服了:]

除了能放松自己，
我最喜欢那宁静的环境，
它让我放空脑袋，
好好地享受当下的美好。

虽然之前发生很多不愉快的事，
但谢谢祂让我渡过一切。
祂让我看见从现在开始，
我将会遇上很多人，更好的人，
更爱我的人。
而在我前方等待我步入的正是一个
明亮的康庄大道。

等着我发掘的人和事还有很多呢！
我坚信我会实现我的梦想，
达到我的人生目标。

P.S. 今天我又更漂亮了，外在与内在，感恩 :]

Ho'oponopono

This is a Hawaiian term. "Ho'o" brings the meaning of enabling while "ponopono" means perfection. What a beautiful term, enabling perfection. Ho'oponopono is actually a treatment originating from Hawaii which helps people to achieve wealth, peace, and more. The basic concept underlying this treatment is to enable us to eliminate all the negative schemas in our mind so that we may go back to a state of zero limit, an origin for all of us, from the day we were made by God.

After getting to know this term, something strikes within me. It is sort of an enlightenment. We have been living our lives with the expectations, memories, people, and situations in our mind that we think that we are carrying out our lives consciously (fully within our control) while the truth is that we are actually demonstrating or being carried away by those subconscious motives or desires or even memories that we are repressing. I am sounding much like Freud here now.

In fact, the hustle and bustle of our daily lives never really let us achieve our ultimate end which is happiness. It is only when we try to go back to the zero state and hear the real calling within our hearts that we might know who we really are and what really is the purpose we are here in this world for.

The question is how do we get back to the zero state? Based on Ho'oponopono's assumption, the four phrases above help us to achieve that. The main idea is that by filling these four phrases in our hearts, we begin to realize the importance of taking up the responsibilities to the happenings around us (in a positive way) and stop putting the blame on others. "Weren't you present when the happenings went on although you did not contribute directly? The professor therapist answered this to the question "How can I possibly be held responsible even for how people react to a situation? Yes you do. At least in part.

Try to cleanse all the negative memories and schemas and stop the blame on others, then you may find peace from within. Not temporal happiness, but eternal everlasting joy that shines from within. Not dependent on anything any person, but entirely dependent on you and your zero state.

一半

大考考了一半，
还剩一半，
快点考完吧！
因为很想跟朋友出去喝茶，聊天。

今天，又令一个朋友点发了我。
他说的好像是这么多人当中我最
听得进去的。

谢谢你！没想过原来你这么会想的。
哈哈！
你说得对，真情之交淡如水。
如果他是真心为你好，或对你好，
不管时间隔多久，他
依然会对你好。

谢谢你yh!

惨了

不知是不是喉咙很痛的关系，
现在额头热热的，
千万别发烧叻
(>.<)

(>.<) :]

喉咙啊喉咙，
对我好些吧！
别再发作了，很痛叻！

不过，不是要说喉咙啦！
是要谢谢妳，wen!
My dear white cat.
你昨晚打给我才让我发现，
原来你们个个都这么以我为榜样的，
原来我在你们眼中是这么优秀的一个人。
而且我得到的敬佩原来是这么多的。
不知道要怎样回应*脸红*

你说得对，我只是感情脆弱，我的根还是强的，
缺点就在于太过念旧，重感情，
也重视身边对我好过的人。

可是我会听你说的，有你这番鼓励的话，
我很感动！

有白面猫真好。

P.S. 只可惜之前说了想让你见他，结果现在都没这个机会了。

明天的考试我们都要一起加油！虽然应该都没什么机会说话的，但还是要替你加油

身体衰退

最近，
压力很多，生活加学业，
喉痛又再发作了
>.<
而且很容易就腰酸背痛，
怎么办呢？

难道我的喉咙真的应该去检查一下？
好像真的很容易发作叻。
嗯...

最幸福的事

 我最幸福的事，
当过你的天使，
为挚爱的人在左边心口保留位置，
是最幸福的事

T.T

P.S. 我愿意相信你是为了我们好才这么狠心的，能有一天让你证实我这想法是真的吗？

心情

要坚强！要加油！因为他也是心疼的，只是不愿表露。妳应该了解他的用意，别再哭了！

依然相信

依然相信，
你只是伪装着自己，因为你
不是那个他。

你是不管怎样都会在乎我的，
或许你觉得要这么狠心对待我，
我才能走出更好的人生，
面对更难的挑战。

如果你是有这样的想法，
谢谢你！

P.S. 为什么我会这么相信，因为你说过你爱一个人是这样的，鞭策她让她成长。
虽然没你陪我过，但我希望在往后的日子，你能真正做回那个对所有朋友都好的那个zhuoni.
我很想念那和蔼可亲，乐于关怀及照顾身边的人的zhuoni.

所以我才说你是伪装你自己，因为我真的了解你的，也因为跟你太熟了，我才要你做回个个都喜爱的那个zhuoni。

期待

对了，很期待考试快点结束，
因为这就代表我要读degree的日子也渐渐到来，
离开梦想又近些了

我知道现在我所经历的，是上天给我安排的，
因为上天要一个全新的我，
我不会怨天尤人，
因为这是苦尽甘来的苦，
所以甘就在不久的以后。

这堂课虽然很难明白，
但我却了解到一点，没有失去你，
我就真的失去了遇见更好的人，
因为不管我怎样否认，身边所有的朋友，
甚至亲戚都一再告诉我，这个人离开你好啊，
根本都不配嘛！

你这样的结束方式虽然很令人失望，也很不尽人情，
但其实是我太重感情了，
前些日子在朋友的鼓励下，如果我能坚决些，
不理会你的感受，
分离的日子比这次来得更早呢！
结果重感情的人，到头来却是被伤害最重的。

P.S. 我之所以没那么早说，是因为我珍惜一路走来的点点滴滴，想给双方多一次机会，也看在我们还要考试，
可惜，无情的人是不会像傻傻的水瓶座有这么单纯的想法

久违的我

久违的我，
这灿烂的笑容，活泼的自己，
可以回来找我吗？
我好想念妳！
还有，你身边那位疼爱你的人呢？
我知道是他让你这么灿烂，让你这么可爱的，
所以你要坚强回，活泼回，成熟些，
他才会回来哦

P.S. 谢谢你把我拍得这么秀气

默默地等待

看回你之前为我做的，为我付出的爱，
对了，我坚信你说了那番伤人的话，还有现在这么对我，
也是不想我以后有一天会因为分离而伤得更深，
因为你坚信我们走不下去。

可是，我却想起你那时的勇气，
那时你正因为太爱我，所以抛出来一个抉择，
要我选，因为你要有名分地爱我，
是，那时我缺少的正是你那份勇气。

现在，我依然愿意相信那勇气还在，
那时你还说要亲自跟我父母谈呢，
但是因为中间发生了让我们心痛及不愉快的事，
你对我也从有信心到现在放弃。
我明白的，你或许也是辛苦的，只是不愿表露。

相信总有一天，你对我的感觉会回来的，
只是需要时间。

P.S. 明天的测验你要gambateh 噢！

旧景重逢

今天，虽然放弃了护士的工作，
但我却能见到多年以来陪着我成长的一个恩人，
我自幼的钢琴老师。
对了，她就是从小到大都这么疼我的老师。
其实想起来我还挺幸运的，除了这位，还有令一位中学老师，
也是超疼我的。

这次的会面，除了叙旧，
也让往事一幕幕的展现在我脑海里，
就在我和老师吃午餐的餐馆，
虽然还是我和老师，
但之前却多了一个疼我，关心我的人。
对了，回到那餐馆，我中学男友的背影似乎又出现了。
他之前会在那儿，也是为了打工赚钱，
来填满我和他共同拥有的扑满。
哈哈，他说是为了要花在我的身上的。哈哈，往事
不过，却是甜蜜的。
想起来，他真是个有担当且有规划的一个男人。

回到我老师这边，她自己开了个音乐中心，
真了不起叻！
而且她还想我跟她一起教琴，还要我得空就去那
弹弹，聊聊的，
重逢的感觉真好，庆幸有你哦老师！

P.S. 过了两年，原来那时你为了我辛苦地去赚钱的那劳累的背影，是要用多大的爱
才办得到，可惜我并没在那时察觉到，你，原来是这么好的。

伟大的爱

对了，今天就是母亲节。
虽然只不过是另一个二十四小时的一天，
但它正是不可或缺的一天，
因为它提醒了我们，
要对妈妈好不只是在今天，
这一天的存在是为了提醒我们，
在每一天里都要记得这个带我们来这世界的人，
这个多么伟大的母爱。

虽然很多时候，
我都让你担心，伤心，
但是无论如何，我都是爱你的。
有很多时候我不太认同你说的，
可是到后来所有的事情都证实了，
也验证了你说的一点都没错。

我不能随口答应你我能立刻成长，
但我会用时间证明我已经在心里默默地告诉自己，
我一定会听你说的，要坚强，要独立。
我会牢记在心里的。

总之，谢谢你，妈！

P.S. 或许在我这个年龄，眼光还看不清你要让我看的以后和未来，但我相信你是要把最好的给我。请原谅我暂时不能透彻了解及看清楚，但我相信就像以前我不信的事，现在一一发生了。
所以你说的我以后光明的前途，美满的家庭，也一定如你所说的，一一呈现在我面前，只要我能挨过这关。


不知今天你跟你妈过得如何呢？手机应该换新的了吧！

Good luck :]

五月啊！就是整个月都在考试。
祝你在下星三的考试顺利，
要考好好噢！

你说得对，原本一个很独立的我，
有了对你的依赖，我的独立也不翼而飞了。
所以呢，我要独立了，因为这就是本来的我。

还有，我们也一定要努力奔向自己的梦想，
这才是目前最重要的。

P.S. 希望我们在面子书能继续做朋友啦。还有，
我三个月的假期可能要去当护士呢！希望会是个不错的经验！

各自加油吧

To be continued....

无论如何，
若能重新认识你，
也许，
我们的故事还没完。
因为，
往往仓促的爱情，缺乏的就是那
真实的体会，因为
太多的情感及expectation，
蒙蔽了我们的眼睛，
让我们都看不到对方的好了，
应该说即使好，也会被自己当时的情绪作怪，
而被看成不好了。

P.S. 我知道你并不是这么的一个人，你可以很好。只是周遭的事情都把我们塑造成两个不是真正的我们了。

重新出发

人与人之间的情分是很奥妙的，当它来临时，
你是不会察觉到，也不多留意，
但当它到某个阶段要离开你时，
却是任由你怎么去唤它也回不来了。

几乎每个人都说，唉，又不是什么世界末日，
总有个更好的在等你吧，你的条件又这么好。
这话没错，但毕竟人还是逃不过伤感，感慨，
感慨这么一个人就要变成另一个陌生人，
却无法改变眼前的世局。

之前发生了一连串开心的，不开心的，
我们无论如何也返不回去了。
之前谁对谁错也不重要了，
重要的是这场爱情带给我们不少的启示，
也提升了我们的坚定和毅力。

就好像容祖儿的一首歌，“爱一个上多一课”，
虽然这不是我们想要的结局，
但至少我们能向往以后，当时间冲淡了怨恨，不满，
我们的友情重修旧好，
这样我们俩才真正解脱了。

事情演变成这样，当然孤掌难鸣，
但我庆幸的是我们有曾经爱过的机会，也曾经为彼此遮风挡雨过，
无论如何，至少我们看透了我们不适合而分开，
这是上天让我们更了解自己的一个机会。

P.S. 虽然在短时间内，我们都不能当作没一回事，
但我相信总有一天我们能像以前一样，
只是不同时间，不同感觉，不同身份地，
一起吃饭聊天。

粉粉与东东

昨天，对粉粉来说，似乎是世界末日。早上醒来，就被一个对方的决定震撼到她傻了，慌了。一路以来，粉粉和东东都互相陪伴，扶持。虽然发生了蛮多不愉快的事，但他们所经历过的上上下下，都是很珍贵的。很多时候，粉粉无意大声骂，截然地指点他，粉粉知道东东并不喜欢，但粉粉真的是为东东好。可惜，还没有足够的时间让东东看清粉粉的用意，他们又被逼分离了。或许粉粉真的很不懂得处理她对东东的思念，往往一连串多封的信息，偶尔又加上一些指责，让他喘不过气来了。但，粉粉万万没想到东东会说出这么一番让粉粉震惊且痛不欲生的话。

不管多痛心多难过，粉粉要挨过去。所以粉粉不愿接受东东的那番话。因为粉粉知道这段在一起的时间内，冬冬付出过的爱，是没那么容易删掉的。粉粉愿意继续鼓励东东，让他打开心房，让粉粉了解他内心的痛苦。他选择了这么残忍的方法，粉粉能了解，因为粉粉与东东之间太多阻挡他们的东西了。但，粉粉知道只要她和东东不愿放弃，有问题就一起面对，而不是擅自思考做决定，那这段爱情是不会灭的。

昨天，粉粉真的什么也吃不下，眼泪不停流，流了，干了后又再流，书开了但什么也没被吸收进去。她总不相信东东会如此忍心，他一定有理由的，因为粉粉了解东东。她知道他是专一的。往事一幕一幕地上映在粉粉的脑海中，东东当医师及护士看护粉粉，冬冬与粉粉一起参加的长跑，冬冬满脸通红但还继续与粉粉一起跑到终点的样子，粉粉因为想要东东迅速了解化学科的问题而发生的小口角，东东为粉粉第一次合唱团表演而打气，还担心粉粉着凉而为她披上的寒衣，东东大骂粉粉因为要她尝试放松自己，别给自己在学业上太大压力，但过后还是轻声细语地安慰粉粉，粉粉为东东贴上胶布，因为东东被粉粉的伊面锅烫到>.<。东东重电脑室跑回房间就是为了拿退烧药给粉粉，东东为粉粉庆生，粉粉陪东东出去吃好料，粉粉每次在班看下时间，老师要开始教书了，便紧张地一直信息，拨电给东东，希望他别又睡过头了，还有最可爱的，就是粉粉与东东一起完tetris，东东往往喜欢说：“来啦，帮你上rank。”粉粉就总喜欢坚持说不要不要我要玩，电快没了。:] （其实粉粉会去开始玩tetris都是为了东东噢）还有很多很多，虽然似乎就要结束了，但粉粉依然坚信这一切还没完的。奥妙的是，粉粉都只记得这些快乐的点滴，所以粉粉希望东东也一样，把不愉快的丢掉，与粉粉重新开始。

东东，希望粉粉要我写的这些你都能看到。粉粉希望东东不要轻易言弃，给这段爱情多一次的机会，因为粉粉和东东经历了这么多，是很难得的。

笔于2012年5月5日

我根本什么都不是

爱一个人，是不会舍得让他苦苦地等待遥远的回复。

爱一个人，是不会在她需要他时因为忙而忽略她。

爱一个人，是在多忙都好，都会挤那丁点儿的机会来信息她，关怀她。

爱一个人，是不管在任何情况下都会尝试去了解她，而不是因为她耍性子而丢下她。

爱一个人，是不管怎样都舍不得大声地骂她，而是慢慢地开解她，让她明白。

爱一个人，是无时无刻都会想着她，尽量守着电话，为了就是第一时间收到她那甜蜜的问候。

爱一个人，是不管在多艰难，多难办的情况下都会尽量做完以上这些。

我也有好多好多没说出口的困难，但我永远不让我爱的人苦等。分别就在于我肯找的是机会，而不是种种的借口。

P.S. 我知道我永远不会被你这么爱。

A Special Day Out

Time really flies. Today is the 9th day of Chinese New Year. Spontaneously, four of us (Lish, Lin, Johnny, and me) went for an outing at Sunway Pyramid. This plan was actually not as spontaneous as it is since we have already planned ahead during the first week of Chinese New Year. Anyhow, it was definitely a great thing to spend some awesome time with my awesome dudes during this Chinese New Year. It adds much meaning to this festival. :]

Lish and I were the first two who arrived and we had a great time catching up with each other while waiting for the other two*ahem! ahem!* Later, we were pondering on where to have lunch and decided to hand over the task of decision to LIND...(as punishment ^^hehe). We agreed on going to Fullhouse Lifestyle Store & Cafe and Johnny joined us there later.

After lunch, we were thinking whether to watch a movie or go for other activities. In the end, we agreed on going for something new which is BOWLING!!! YEAH!!! I love it after two games though in the first the ball seemed to like the "drain" a lot. LOLZ. Here are some pictures ;)

Johnny :]

Me <3

Lish :)

Lind :D

After 2 games straight, we went to Popular bookstore, intended to buy some books but in the end nothing turned out. :P Chatime ended our outing session. Although it was not an eventful outing but the feeling of getting together with the closed ones was irreplaceable with any great events.

好遥远

真的真的好遥远！心中越来越寂寞了。我就要窒息了，可是你不明白。心痛，悲伤，寂寞，不是最苦。没有你最珍贵的安慰才是最苦。但，往往你就在我需要安慰时丢下我。我并不是不谅解，如果是的话，以我的性格我早已不在这个时候还守候着你的电话。

这是你第一次隔了整整二十四个小时才回我信息，我的心好痛好痛！这是你第一次狠下心肠置我那无数次的拨电不管，我的心好痛好痛！这是你第一次狠狠地让我心中的疑问及不安无法释怀，我的心真的真的很痛！这也是第一次让我看见你残忍的一面。

今天，也因为你，我感受到了需要吃却完全吃不下的感觉。

打不下去了，因为泪水已蒙蔽了我的眼睛。

P.S. 我仍希望我还是你心中那可爱的pooh, 也希望明天你能来。在此说声对不起无法改地点，因为改了后或许连见面机会也没了。

为什么？

身边的人似乎都被幸福环绕着，就连最出乎预料的例子也出来了。对我来说，幸福那扇门好像始终敲不开。或许这么说太极端了，有些门开是开了，但往往不是一扇让我能安心踏入的门。

我愿意相信我真的有足够的理由让你那么在乎，疼爱，及关怀。可是今天读了你的部落格后，感觉那信心好像动摇了。因为我害怕，你心里深埋着的那位，不知何时会浮现来替代我。从你的日记中，她似乎很好，你也非常地在乎她。读了你对她所做的一切，我心里更复杂了，好多个问号出现在我心中。我承认我真的害怕失去你，因为毕竟我不是那种温柔体贴的女生，我也不能保证你的守候能经得起风浪和考验。

P.S. 我只能用耐心去观察这扇门，是否真的能带我走上幸福之道。我希望你会是我那幸福之窗。

HAPPY DRAGON YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!

Hey! It has been a really looong time since I last updated my blog. Yea, I must admit I'm really too lazy to blog. Perhaps I only find a limited number of events which are meaningful enough for me to spend time :P haha. sorry :S Anyways, I'm currently in a superb good mood since my 2nd Semester's Final had officially ENDED yesterday and CNY IS COMING!!!!!! YAY!!! I had loved CNY since young. "ooppss, I know what you are thinking* But, the love definitely doesn't come from getting "ang paws" alone ( though it makes up part of it XP ). CNY had always been special for me because I love seeing my family and relatives gathering together and sharing thoughts. It is undeniably a good fellowship opportunity. And of course, CNY songs are always so motivating that they would make me feel motivated for a brand new year ahead. 


This CNY is definitely a special one. Why would I say so ? On top of the warm reunion with my family, I'm planning to have a few gatherings with my dudes. First of all, I'm gonna meet up with my long-time-no-see 白面猫(wen dee)<3 and koon koon. Really miss these two special friends of mine who really walked with me as true friends. :) 

Wen & me ^^

Next, and the most anticipated one, my first ever CNY gathering with the members of Our Cozy Lil' Home. :D They are definitely an awesome bunch of friends <3. Looking forward to more unforgettable moments with you guys. 

Dear Li sha (front) and Linda (back)a.k.a. malta teng XP

The FUNNY Johnny

My Cow- MOOOOO!!!1

Vincent the Great!!!!

The cute Yen <3

Note: Not all of the members are here. hehe just to show a few :)


In this new year ahead, hopefully I will go on with my studies well and smooth. I'm also wishing that our friendship bond will continue to grow stronger (hopefully stronger than hydrogen bonds heh ;P)