Time flies. Yea, it's a common yet undeniable truth. And yes this is another tiny turning point compared to that from high school because in coming September I'm going to start my degree course officially. As for now, I have graduated from foundation and it was truly a special and fruitful year. Special in the sense that I have encountered novel environment and people while the fruitful part of course is that I have went a level up in my education.
This foundation year had been a ride of ups and downs both physically and mentally. Starting April last year, that was a great turning point where I left my home sweet home to stay in a new and challenging environment. I was really enthusiastic in meeting new people, facing new challenges. I was really filled with positive energies. On the first day itself, I met him, the 2nd person in Foundation in Science. He seems like a shy person to me. Not much feeling aroused though : P But yea he was friendly.
I have gotten into a group of girl friends and so most of the time of my first semester were spent with them. And most of the time in campus (after lesson) I would spend alone or with my roommate. I did revision daily too. Haha. And then, there came another guy who tried to interact and get to know me. But honestly speaking, at that time, my whole mind was filled with only how to strive for better in my studies so I did not feel much though he continued to shower his care and concern for me. And then, perhaps I had mistaken people's expectation with mine and therefore I started things foolishly. (Thank God you have found your happiness now, if not I will feel guilty).
And then, there came 2nd semester where my truly close and special friend appeared. He was there when I faced difficult times. In fact, he was just there in good and bad times. And of course, we were very happy catching up in each other's lives and we enjoyed the companionship. The bond grew stronger and stronger. However, we made mistakes in dealing with the trials that our close relationship had encountered. One had set up expectations before learning to know what's the best for the other party and another had always tried to hide all discomfort so that the other party would not feel hurt or sad. It was really a special bond in a way that we both knew each other quite well actually. But in the end, as what flawed humans always do, negative thoughts came into the picture and blinded our eyes to the wonderful things set before us. And as negative thoughts grow more they completely overturn the wonderful things, and the bond is broken.
I do still wish to weave back the close bond, yet in a new way of course. New way constitutes refreshed mind and thoughts. How I wish things did not end this way. Yet, I would not put the blame to anyone as I know everything that happens to me or around me, I am held accountable for. All I can do is to use pure loving heart to accept everything that has happened. Because only when I know how to really love (friend/ partner), the bond will be stronger and more firm.
P.S. I am truly grateful to have you being with me all the times. Honey did his best for Pooh. Honey let Pooh realize too how Pooh has deviated from the original happy and simple Pooh. Luckily Pooh is going back to the origin now. :]
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