In a few couples of days later, 2012's first half is going to end. Time rockets I shall say. Lamentably, only in these two months do I realize the secret pearl that has been implanted within my heart. Before this, that pearl, which of immeasurable value, was perceived as negligible. How foolish was I before this. Exactly, temporal and deceitful things have blinded me from the truth. Foolish was I to satisfy with only temporal joy when I could have found rest in Him and experience true and eternal joy. Nonetheless, now is the time of thanksgiving for the great love of His that has brought forth all the good things laid before my eyes. Thank God for your grace and truth.
All this while, I have been living in basic security and comfort. However, this past half-year was quite an expected one or one that I have never anticipated before. As I recollect those previous years that I have swayed away from the house of God, life had never been too easy to find apprehension to the huge challenges and obstacles that I have encountered. However, as I look back to this past year ( starting from last year's July ) that I have started to know God, this whole year was a different or rather not one that I could have expected. He made the plans for me, impeccable plans. Nevertheless, I have chosen the other way, I have misused the freewill God had given me since birth. However, God is never too weary to welcome His lost children back to His house. Amen. I have been brought back again, just like how a lost son goes back to his father.
Grateful is the right word at the right time of my life now.
"Rest in God and all things shall fall in place. Amen"
Monday, 25 June 2012
Wednesday, 20 June 2012
It was a beautiful Saturday
YES INDEED. It was truly a special and beautiful Saturday. I went for work as usual and after work, it was LG time :] It was my second time in LG and I'm starting to love this group. Ironically, this second LG meeting gave me more surprises than the the first one. The surprises come from someone. I'll just name this someone E. E exudes a certain level of confidence that serve as an attractive force to those around E. I have not known E from this LG actually as E had initiated conversation with me since Christmas production. To me, E is a friendly person. But today, I had seen the serious and stern side of E. I'm sure E is a good friend to know as I have too much to learn from E, a good advocate I would say.
The Saturday of course did not end just there. I went for a night service at New Life Church. It was Chinese based but I find them very welcoming and warm. It was a wonderful service too and I have met new people too. This particular person gave me the nice and warm eye contact and smile that I will not forget. The handshake was a good one too. And to conclude, I find that people who delight in God are so beautiful and warm. The smile is nothing being forged or has any hidden meaning, just the pure joy coming from a heart that is filled with the Word.
That Saturday was how beautiful. I will remember, now and always. (:
The Saturday of course did not end just there. I went for a night service at New Life Church. It was Chinese based but I find them very welcoming and warm. It was a wonderful service too and I have met new people too. This particular person gave me the nice and warm eye contact and smile that I will not forget. The handshake was a good one too. And to conclude, I find that people who delight in God are so beautiful and warm. The smile is nothing being forged or has any hidden meaning, just the pure joy coming from a heart that is filled with the Word.
That Saturday was how beautiful. I will remember, now and always. (:
Wednesday, 13 June 2012
Heartfelt lyrics
I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?
Yeah, I, I know it's hard to remember,
The people we used to be...
It's even harder to picture,
That you're not here next to me.
You say it's too late to make it,
But is it too late to try?
And in our time that you wasted
All of our bridges burned down
I've wasted my nights,
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed,
Still stuck in that time,
When we called it love,
But even the sun sets in paradise
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?
Yeah, I, I know it's hard to remember,
The people we used to be...
It's even harder to picture,
That you're not here next to me.
You say it's too late to make it,
But is it too late to try?
And in our time that you wasted
All of our bridges burned down
I've wasted my nights,
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed,
Still stuck in that time,
When we called it love,
But even the sun sets in paradise
The song sings it all.
Sunday, 10 June 2012
Hold your tongue
What a good message from Pastor Raymond Yong today. By convention, I would have probably missed this message as I have opted for morning services due to the extraordinarily hot weather nowadays. However, by God's plan I had been given the special opportunity of being part of this very special message. It really spoke to my heart at the right time. It was really in a way "went with the flow" as I did not have plans in mind to attend two services on Sunday. Before this special service, I had a great time with Lish and Lind having lunch and tea.
Ok, back to the message. Holding your tongue. By first thought, you would think that, "Well, asking me not to talk or even utter any word." but the message is quite the opposite. Speech by the tongue is much encouraged for good and constructive purposes actually. It is hard to accomplish in daily life as for mature couple or old family, a simple phrase of " I love you" or "Dear, I really thank you for your care all these years. " will come in awkward for most of the people in this era as people tend to be less and less interactive. Moreover, it is even harder to accomplish when we are constantly tempted by the sin of anger and we often utter ungraceful words in our anger outbursts. These words, most of the time or rather I would say all the time, are destructive and hurtful curses. And Pastor said something to my heart, he pointed out that we would easily utter such words in anger or daily lives is due to the presence of unconscious evil thoughts we have for the world. And the heart governs what comes out of the tongue, making tongue the showcase of our true inner heart.
At this point, I did a thorough self-reflect. And I realized the impulse within me as I have gotten angry easily and spilled out ungraceful words that have been hurtful to many. I have sinned in my anger. Though I have no full control over my emotions, but I'm glad that I know God's word and that I can transform myself by knowing God's hands are upon my life. This is not an overnight transformation but I pledge to show to God that I will do it, no matter what it takes, to take on a new life with Jesus Christ's character. Love your neighbour, love your enemy, be slow in anger and abounding in love.
Ok, back to the message. Holding your tongue. By first thought, you would think that, "Well, asking me not to talk or even utter any word." but the message is quite the opposite. Speech by the tongue is much encouraged for good and constructive purposes actually. It is hard to accomplish in daily life as for mature couple or old family, a simple phrase of " I love you" or "Dear, I really thank you for your care all these years. " will come in awkward for most of the people in this era as people tend to be less and less interactive. Moreover, it is even harder to accomplish when we are constantly tempted by the sin of anger and we often utter ungraceful words in our anger outbursts. These words, most of the time or rather I would say all the time, are destructive and hurtful curses. And Pastor said something to my heart, he pointed out that we would easily utter such words in anger or daily lives is due to the presence of unconscious evil thoughts we have for the world. And the heart governs what comes out of the tongue, making tongue the showcase of our true inner heart.
At this point, I did a thorough self-reflect. And I realized the impulse within me as I have gotten angry easily and spilled out ungraceful words that have been hurtful to many. I have sinned in my anger. Though I have no full control over my emotions, but I'm glad that I know God's word and that I can transform myself by knowing God's hands are upon my life. This is not an overnight transformation but I pledge to show to God that I will do it, no matter what it takes, to take on a new life with Jesus Christ's character. Love your neighbour, love your enemy, be slow in anger and abounding in love.
Friday, 8 June 2012
A simple day out :]
Yesterday, it was a spontaneous day out with my close girl friend Wen Dee. The chance of catching up in life with the closed ones is very precious. During lunch time at Dubu Dubu Restaurant, we had a great time talking about the various happy and crazy moments of 4S4 and 5S4. Moments when we fought over little things of course has become a laughing matter now. Those high school moments are too special and significant to be forgotten.
Now that I have 3 more years left before I take on a life changing journey in my career. Wen and I have realized that by then we would have much lesser time to meet up, which is quite true. However, I still look forward to my career life. By that time, I would be nearer to my dreams and things that I want to achieve in life. The life that is entirely based upon my wish and style. Of course, things wont go as easy as a to z but I'm ready to face the challenge.
Tomorrow will be a nice day :] I'm going to meet up with a bunch of new friends from LG. It is my first time being in a LG and hopefully it'll be a great kick start of my involvement in church though it's not really one since I have participated in Christmas choir last year. Haha.
P.S. All the best to myself =]
Now that I have 3 more years left before I take on a life changing journey in my career. Wen and I have realized that by then we would have much lesser time to meet up, which is quite true. However, I still look forward to my career life. By that time, I would be nearer to my dreams and things that I want to achieve in life. The life that is entirely based upon my wish and style. Of course, things wont go as easy as a to z but I'm ready to face the challenge.
Tomorrow will be a nice day :] I'm going to meet up with a bunch of new friends from LG. It is my first time being in a LG and hopefully it'll be a great kick start of my involvement in church though it's not really one since I have participated in Christmas choir last year. Haha.
P.S. All the best to myself =]
Saturday, 2 June 2012
Foundation year has come to an end
Time flies. Yea, it's a common yet undeniable truth. And yes this is another tiny turning point compared to that from high school because in coming September I'm going to start my degree course officially. As for now, I have graduated from foundation and it was truly a special and fruitful year. Special in the sense that I have encountered novel environment and people while the fruitful part of course is that I have went a level up in my education.
This foundation year had been a ride of ups and downs both physically and mentally. Starting April last year, that was a great turning point where I left my home sweet home to stay in a new and challenging environment. I was really enthusiastic in meeting new people, facing new challenges. I was really filled with positive energies. On the first day itself, I met him, the 2nd person in Foundation in Science. He seems like a shy person to me. Not much feeling aroused though : P But yea he was friendly.
I have gotten into a group of girl friends and so most of the time of my first semester were spent with them. And most of the time in campus (after lesson) I would spend alone or with my roommate. I did revision daily too. Haha. And then, there came another guy who tried to interact and get to know me. But honestly speaking, at that time, my whole mind was filled with only how to strive for better in my studies so I did not feel much though he continued to shower his care and concern for me. And then, perhaps I had mistaken people's expectation with mine and therefore I started things foolishly. (Thank God you have found your happiness now, if not I will feel guilty).
And then, there came 2nd semester where my truly close and special friend appeared. He was there when I faced difficult times. In fact, he was just there in good and bad times. And of course, we were very happy catching up in each other's lives and we enjoyed the companionship. The bond grew stronger and stronger. However, we made mistakes in dealing with the trials that our close relationship had encountered. One had set up expectations before learning to know what's the best for the other party and another had always tried to hide all discomfort so that the other party would not feel hurt or sad. It was really a special bond in a way that we both knew each other quite well actually. But in the end, as what flawed humans always do, negative thoughts came into the picture and blinded our eyes to the wonderful things set before us. And as negative thoughts grow more they completely overturn the wonderful things, and the bond is broken.
I do still wish to weave back the close bond, yet in a new way of course. New way constitutes refreshed mind and thoughts. How I wish things did not end this way. Yet, I would not put the blame to anyone as I know everything that happens to me or around me, I am held accountable for. All I can do is to use pure loving heart to accept everything that has happened. Because only when I know how to really love (friend/ partner), the bond will be stronger and more firm.
P.S. I am truly grateful to have you being with me all the times. Honey did his best for Pooh. Honey let Pooh realize too how Pooh has deviated from the original happy and simple Pooh. Luckily Pooh is going back to the origin now. :]
This foundation year had been a ride of ups and downs both physically and mentally. Starting April last year, that was a great turning point where I left my home sweet home to stay in a new and challenging environment. I was really enthusiastic in meeting new people, facing new challenges. I was really filled with positive energies. On the first day itself, I met him, the 2nd person in Foundation in Science. He seems like a shy person to me. Not much feeling aroused though : P But yea he was friendly.
I have gotten into a group of girl friends and so most of the time of my first semester were spent with them. And most of the time in campus (after lesson) I would spend alone or with my roommate. I did revision daily too. Haha. And then, there came another guy who tried to interact and get to know me. But honestly speaking, at that time, my whole mind was filled with only how to strive for better in my studies so I did not feel much though he continued to shower his care and concern for me. And then, perhaps I had mistaken people's expectation with mine and therefore I started things foolishly. (Thank God you have found your happiness now, if not I will feel guilty).
And then, there came 2nd semester where my truly close and special friend appeared. He was there when I faced difficult times. In fact, he was just there in good and bad times. And of course, we were very happy catching up in each other's lives and we enjoyed the companionship. The bond grew stronger and stronger. However, we made mistakes in dealing with the trials that our close relationship had encountered. One had set up expectations before learning to know what's the best for the other party and another had always tried to hide all discomfort so that the other party would not feel hurt or sad. It was really a special bond in a way that we both knew each other quite well actually. But in the end, as what flawed humans always do, negative thoughts came into the picture and blinded our eyes to the wonderful things set before us. And as negative thoughts grow more they completely overturn the wonderful things, and the bond is broken.
I do still wish to weave back the close bond, yet in a new way of course. New way constitutes refreshed mind and thoughts. How I wish things did not end this way. Yet, I would not put the blame to anyone as I know everything that happens to me or around me, I am held accountable for. All I can do is to use pure loving heart to accept everything that has happened. Because only when I know how to really love (friend/ partner), the bond will be stronger and more firm.
P.S. I am truly grateful to have you being with me all the times. Honey did his best for Pooh. Honey let Pooh realize too how Pooh has deviated from the original happy and simple Pooh. Luckily Pooh is going back to the origin now. :]
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